Incident: Corey says, “It’s like a physical high. It’s a good high. It’s an addictive high like all highs in the long run turn out to be, but it’s a high that won’t hurt you.
Dear nightly diary,
of course and
obviously these things mean more to me than I admit
even if I admit them here, I don't admit them elsewhere, it's so easy to sing it to a crowd, but it's so hard to say it to you alone. Das Video ist grässlich in all seiner Symbolik, mir widerstrebt auch an vielen Ecken der Text, ist er weit offen und doch an anderen ganz und gar nicht, mehr gläubig. Abschweifend, Schleier, Hauch.
Nun, aber zu etwas gänzlich Anderem. I pretend not to give a shit.
today it happened that i played "love will tear us apart"
a cover taken from the band joy division
on the piano with voice
my voice
that voice which is going to hate me tomorrow
since, actually, i am kind of sick and should stay in bed and should not be drinking three glasses of red wine and then say
Dear nightly diary,
of course and
obviously these things mean more to me than I admit
even if I admit them here, I don't admit them elsewhere, it's so easy to sing it to a crowd, but it's so hard to say it to you alone. Das Video ist grässlich in all seiner Symbolik, mir widerstrebt auch an vielen Ecken der Text, ist er weit offen und doch an anderen ganz und gar nicht, mehr gläubig. Abschweifend, Schleier, Hauch.
Nun, aber zu etwas gänzlich Anderem. I pretend not to give a shit.
today it happened that i played "love will tear us apart"
a cover taken from the band joy division
on the piano with voice
my voice
that voice which is going to hate me tomorrow
since, actually, i am kind of sick and should stay in bed and should not be drinking three glasses of red wine and then say
after an instrumental intro
"now this was the warm up, i will try if my voice works"
and then sing at the top of my lungs a wonderful version which did not resemble the original version at all (outside of basic chords and lyrics)
including mistakes and my shivering right leg, which told me that really, i shouldnt be out there, pressing down the pedal.
someone asked for the lights to be turned down, on my behalf.
i was one with the instrument in my bubble of sound and i didnt hear the outside world, much, until the end and the applause and the thank yous and the hugs. i didnt feel bad for receiving attention as i was also giving something
being a musician isnt so bad, not at all.
and then sing at the top of my lungs a wonderful version which did not resemble the original version at all (outside of basic chords and lyrics)
including mistakes and my shivering right leg, which told me that really, i shouldnt be out there, pressing down the pedal.
someone asked for the lights to be turned down, on my behalf.
i was one with the instrument in my bubble of sound and i didnt hear the outside world, much, until the end and the applause and the thank yous and the hugs. i didnt feel bad for receiving attention as i was also giving something
being a musician isnt so bad, not at all.
Und in solchen Momenten scheint es dann so einfach und so klar, sind all diese Dinge nicht einmal ansatzweise pathetisch, noch nicht einmal das auf den leicht verstimmten Seiten tanzende Heft mit dem Liedtext, und möchte ich das nicht überdenken und zerlegen, kritisch hinterfragen.
Plötzlich war ich dann aber wieder auf dem Boden und hatte einen Körper und Fehler
die Bedeutungen haben.
die Bedeutungen haben.
tides and waves
